so don't feel attacked by my utterance
why would i? 
what you said is true, it's just difficult for me because i'm way too sensitive for such things. i know it's "just" a dream, but in a way, it "damages" my conscious too much to face it like "just" a dream ... it's something i would really like to get rid of, this sensitivity, and live a normal life, without being afraid of every single sound which reminds me of those nightmares ... :oops:
fears are difficult to deal with indeed, but I'm sure you'll manage...and sensitivity is also something beautiful, one should just try to find a balance in it just like in everything in life... the psyche is a tricky thing and sometimes seems to work against yourself, otherwise I wouldn't have such a low self-image for example... it sometimes takes long to find the key to deal with it or to learn to use it (like a drunk doesn't always find the keyhole by himself
) ... just keep trying not to get petrified I think it will help you ... but I know how difficult it is to control fear sometimes, it's like with this fact that many recognise "you sit silently reading a book, watching tele or whatever and all at once you feel this strong presence but see nothing" most become fear there and some find it easier to get over it than others...in your case it's even more overwhelming as it happens on the "unconscious" level... for sure you have a deep fear in you, but I also know you still have the strenght to fight this fear
*big hug*
