Ich will hier raus, ich will hier weg... I fear this week, I fear I won't be able to temper my own anger... my heart already starts beating so fast even thinking about this intruder standing in front of our door each and every day... why do we sometimes make choices we're not able to conquer only to satisify another? Why do we try to give each and every their "right of freedom" and what is with ours? What is with my emotions in this entire situation? It's such an insanity, really... luckily I have music, I will hide deep within every time she, who has nothing in mind but destroying our peace, rings the door... and I'll run fast, so very fast, very hard and very far just not to hit anybody because I feel so much anger and I'm afraid of this feeling because I know it's wrong to give in to it... it's the easiest choice, but not the right choice... we should try to be kind, not right... but it's so damn hard... for god's sake I'm not a saint, I'm a f***ing human misantrophist ... but I'll live anyhow... I'll live and i'll view the flowery flowers and the watery waters, I'll hear the birds sing, I'll see the vegetables grow and feel everything's right.
