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« Reply #3210 on: March 17, 2019, 10:51:22 »
***
Wasn’t it something predictable
That we are standing here again
Opposite each other
Again -- the lovers who were enemies
The enemies who want to be lovers
Isn’t it obvious -- I succumb to you
I succumb to you -- and I can’t stand it
Seeing it hurts, but not seeing is worse
Accepting it is painful, and finally, I live
I feel alive when I accept all there is

So I look into your eyes
And I don’t avoid meeting
With the truth

Wasn’t it something predictable
If I were older, wiser, braver
I would have already succumbed to it
Long ago -- years ago -- but I wanted
To be someone else than I am
I wanted to be a saint, to be above my feelings
I wanted to preserve your world as it was
I wanted to live as if I never felt you
As if I could ignore what I knew
Pretend to be blind
As if your scream isn’t a scream
Your pain isn’t pain
Your loneliness isn’t real
And it is not mere plain fear
That stops me from seeing how lonely I am
Without you

Wasn’t it something predictable
Oh, how smart I thought I was
Yet I missed the obvious

I love you
And I can never win over it
I love you
And while there is a chance
To unite with you
I must use it
When things go bad -- do something good.

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« Reply #3211 on: March 18, 2019, 17:13:32 »
Das Leben läuft weiter
die Jahren vergingen
Geglaubt zu finden aber
weiss man je wirklich was man sucht?

Die Türe hast du zugemacht,
verschlossen,
dich quer gestellt, mich rausgesetzt
aus deiner Seele, aus deinem Herz?
nie wieder komme ich da rein.

Doch vergisst man nie die Seele
die für einen Augenblick die Zeit anhielt
die Augen zum tanzen verführt
und das Herz auf Ewig geändert.

Hoffnung stirbt bekanntlich zuletzt
und hoffen werde ich bis am Ende,
dass unseren Augen und Herzen
eines Tages wieder tanzen
unbeschwert, liebevol und zart,
dass die Liebe einfach
wieder strömen darf.


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« Reply #3212 on: March 21, 2019, 10:37:38 »
Everytime I think out loud
seems things go out too straight
everytime I try to scream
seems my heart pours out the storm
that started growing since I was a little girl
the  girl that never really had an aim in life
everytime I try to force myself into
I run out even faster without really trying
there's a story in my life though
of a girl that knows exactly what she wants
and yet is afraid of reaching out for it
everytime people bring me closer
I block, I lock my heart and swallow the words
the world is not my cup of tea
life is not my cup of tea
everytime I think why I was brought here
my soul protetst, she knows apparently
but just refuses to share the info with me
everytime I wonder why
she brings me you
and you it is
who told
me.
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« Reply #3213 on: March 21, 2019, 10:49:38 »
I cannot not look at
the shattered world I left behind
I cannot not wish
for things to have gone a different road
I cannot not curse
when I see what a fool I was, I am
I forget to breathe ever since you're gone
I cannot sleep, thinking back
watching over each and every pure magic memory
even if scarce,
even if dark sometimes,
I love every and each of them
a sense of yearning craves inside
I cannot really grasp the true meaning of it
was it the feeling of being loved?
was it the illusion of being together?
was it the truth inside we all carry around
of knowing that no matter how earth turns
no matter war waged
how many times left behind
turn around and you run straight into my arms
always was, always is and always will be
yes, I do, forever,
my heart in yours
we live through each other and for us
let be what must and don't strive for anything
till the world dries out
freezes and bursts
till the last cell of my body dies
I will always love you
words remain in the scars of the past
I'll just be there
turn around whenever you're ready
I'm ready.

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« Reply #3214 on: March 22, 2019, 13:55:42 »
Die überlegte Antwort
das schöne rausgelassen
pure nackte Offenheit
keine Mauer, keine Masken
sag's mir, einfach ins Gesicht
so oft vertraut und immer wieder
der Mensch, doch nur ein ausgestorbenes Biest
wie geistesgestört wir alle sind und bleiben
rausgespuckt und weggeschaut
ich kann's kaum noch hören
Land um land, seite an seite,
eine Mauer gegen die anderen
wobei wir doch alle gleich sind
geboren, träumen und verrottet sterben
die blutumkreisten Augen
starren mich an im Spiegel
ich traue mich nicht hin zu schauen
werden wir alle zu einander finden?
oder bleiben wir im Trümmer weitermachen?
nie was richtiges erneut gebaut
weiter gestritten um was uns nicht gehört
die Natur schlagt zurück
und sogar diesen Stärke messen wir uns selbst zu
doch glaube ich
ich glaube
alles wird gut am Ende
alles wird gut
und ich werde hinschauen
egal ob du hinschaust
ich werde bauen
egal ob du's wieder abbrechst
und ich werde vertrauen
auch wenn's wieder misbraucht wird
denn ich glaube
glaube an die Liebe die uns allen verbindet
auf Ewig.
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« Reply #3215 on: March 22, 2019, 20:05:26 »
***
This night I dreamed
But it wasn't a dream
You kissed me
So much had you missed me
So calm did it make me
I knew I had known
This tender sensation
This sparkling elation
From somewhere before

This night I dreamed
But it wasn't a dream
In your arms you took me
Oh, you gently moved me
And I knew I had been there
I belonged there before

This night I dreamed
But it wasn't a dream
And I knew it should be
And I knew it would be
I had clearly known it before
When things go bad -- do something good.

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« Reply #3216 on: April 02, 2019, 09:04:40 »
Feelings that rush
through hour, through space,
no idea what it is that binds me
each time I think of running
there's a tension bouncing me back
I had no idea when I grew up
life was gonna be this tough
Though love survives through ups and downs
there's nothing I wouldn't do reversed
details of choices I'd differ
but still the headliner'd be the same
you made your choice
I made mine
I'll never be in time
Over ages I tried so hard
to be the friend you wanted me to be
time after time I bumped into a closed door
painful hurt though life moves on
I guess this life's not made for us together
be it we're forever united
by the same love.
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« Reply #3217 on: April 02, 2019, 09:19:05 »
Das Licht strahlt weiter
über Jahre hinweg,
es strömt über die Welle von Atem
von der Ast verbreitet
das Leben stärkt sich von Liebe
als wäre es den letzten Trörpfchen Wasser
süchtig streift sie nach die liebenden
die sich verbinden und kämpfen
um das Wohl der Menschheit
Die Gemeinsamkeit in der Einsamkeit
das glühen des Herzens
die Kerze im Auge
strahlt das Licht weiter
in Versuchung verstreut
die Leere der Träume
traumst du noch deine Träume
und lebt sie hinaus in die Gegenwart
die Zukunft an uns vorbeigerastet
verblüht und  entwässert
Das Leben vorbei
die Liebe wächst weiter
wartend und hütend
während das Licht einfach weiterstrahlt
suchend nach Atem
jeder neue äst im Wald.
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« Reply #3218 on: April 03, 2019, 18:38:40 »
***
Easy as
One and two
I used to run from
Now I run to
You

Easy as
One and two
I finally saw you
As you are
I didn't run too far
I'm running fast
Oh, let me grasp
Your hand

Easy as
One and two
Let me continue
Whispering to you
In a voice of kindness
My tenderness, my madness
Your smile fuels my happiness
I'm so much in love

Easy as
One and two
Bask yourself in the warm sunshine
Of my eternal longing to you
I used to run from
Now I run to
You

Easy as
One and two
I want to be the one
For you
I want to be one
With you
I want us two to dance as one
Easy as
One and two

***
These lips that are burning now
Long to be kissed
Properly
But there is only one man
Who can kiss them
So their owner's heart will shine
With joy
And peace
And the body will burn
With a never known desire
So the eyes become searching --
Deep and hungry

Come into my world
These lips long to be kissed

***
You promise
Kindness and laughter
I see walls and silence
How come I'm always wrong
How come you're always right?

You promise
The warm tender light
That will blast the darkness
Yet it is your silence
That breaks me to numbness
Don't pretend you don't know
How come I'm always wrong
How come you're always right?

I stop my flight
As I see a wall in front of me
The same wall, the same color
Of doom, the same insane struggle
We both know when I see Death
You are there, too
We both know who you are to me
We both know the routine, yet see
I'm again here
Broken over your silence
I'm the fire that burns to ashes
Don't pretend you don't know.

The wind, I call you with the might of my soul
The wind, follow my call, follow my fall
The wind, I take control over your flow
The wind, this is my flight to the unknown
I will make this world torn and see everything burn
So I'll stay here alone, with a crime to atone
For.
When things go bad -- do something good.

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« Reply #3219 on: April 05, 2019, 07:13:15 »
***
Pain
That is harder
Than nails

A protecting film
Of white light limits my vision
Tunnels it to a trance
So I’m here and not here
So I can survive

You speak
Lightly
Calmly
That you’d also like to die
Right now
When I see my body
Floating
The sky passing by
And the peaceful silence
And the beauty
And the calmness
And the emptiness
Of my soul is filled with water
An unloved daughter
Is finally back home
Only this can drown
Out your voice
As you continue
Lightly
Of how happy you were
With me
And that I shouldn’t worry
There are many things keeping you here
You wouldn’t do anything
My mind is locating
A sharp object to end this
To free the world from me
Yet you keep talking

You speak
Lightly
Of how good the time was
How you tried to help me
But sadly
All your tries weren’t good ones
You say
Probably that’s because you’re not the one
Who can
Do this right
You speak
After turning me into a magnet of need
To be heard and seen
And within
A voice starts to scream
End this, here
End this!

Silence
Is good if you’re not expected to answer
You are looking at me
And my heart beats faster
But there’s nowhere to run

You speak
Lightly
Calling my name
Till I lose my mind
Till my voice is ringing
STOP TALKING
Tears the room, the house, the life
Into two separate worlds
Mine is trembling
Yours is calm
I cling to anyone
In my memory who can give me some
Hope
Let me breathe as if I’m not wrong
In breathing
Let me think as if I’m not cursed
By thinking
Let me live as if I can love
And be loved
I hide my soul behind a picture of a
Smile
A smile that is giving me hope

You sleep
Peacefully
As I emerge from my life and death combat
Bruised, broken, ashamed of having ever lived
You sleep
Calmly
And I see what I avoided seeing in the life I built
There is nobody here
There was nobody here
Who could feel me
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« Reply #3220 on: April 05, 2019, 18:09:40 »
***
Vanilla and tobacco
Smells are surrounding me
What I hope for
What I kill myself with
To feel at ease
Are mixing
They blend with me and in me
The paintbrush of my hair leaves their trace
As a color for olfactory senses
When I pass by
No, my life, I don't deny
I let it be

Be it a dream -- it helps me survive -- let it be
Be it a lie -- it helps me fight for my life -- let it be
Be it an error -- we won't learn until it is done -- let it be
Be it my love -- my true love, my lost hope -- let it be
Let it come, let it save me
Let it go, let it break me
The tidal wave that can't be ruled
Overcomes me, but the little frame of me
Fears nothing and I let it be

***
Oh, the power of sympathy
Still, nobody sees how arrogant it is
What we all need is empathy
Hear me
Listen to me

Oh, the power of sympathy
Of standing above and advising
As if you know or knew or see or saw
What the world needs is empathy
Hear me
Listen to me
Be with me
Stay with me through this
In this
As I am here
In the dark
Stay in the dark with me
Hand in hand

Oh, the power of sympathy
Of easy advice
Silence your cries
Care for others
You're delusional
Be easier
On others and on yourself
Dare to find strength
Dare to fly
As if it helps
As if it brings a change
What the world needs is empathy
Hear me
Make an attempt
At staying in this with me
Don't drown me with your words
Don't tell me how it hurts
You
Seeing me like this

Oh, the arrogance of sympathy
The power of being above
Even if not felt -- it is there
Even if not seen by you --
It is seen by me
What the world dies for is empathy
See me, be with me
Stay in this with me
See me as I am
Feel me
Feel with me
Don't feel for me
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« Reply #3221 on: April 06, 2019, 19:20:30 »
***
As I walk between these trees that are
Soon to take back their foliage
I glimpse at the house you and me
Visited many times -- the future
I painted vividly to escape my truth
And my loneliness
The one you loved
Not hearing me
I don't blame you -- it was a lesson
For both of us; for me -- where I belong
Really, and what is love
For you -- the price of empathy
And what love is not
And never will be
That there's no effort
Strong enough to turn what is not love
Into one even if everyone is melting
Looking at us
It wasn't that bad, we're good people
You and me; maybe just too young
And too feeble at heart to
Face the reality when it hits
And I'm not able to curve my lips
Into a smile for everyone to show
How sweet this life of us is
That has lost all its sweetness
I'm your friend forever
I know you're my friend, too
Friendship is also beautiful
Let us talk and share jokes and laughter
I don't know how heavy it is
For you now, how hard
Don't blame yourself too much
Be merciful to your heart
It was coming, we both know it
I see the house that is still being built
Soon there would be windows lit
In your home that we hoped for
Or I hoped for to escape all there is
In me
So I walk by it and I'm blessing it:
Your future, your heart, your life
Let us both learn our lessons
As we both know -- it is right
To end what is ending
In order to
Live a full life.

***
Next year
These trees will be the same
But I wouldn't

My pride that used to be wounded
Is gone
The price of being alone
Is too high

I walk by
The home that was almost mine
The beautiful view, the future I drew
Have dissipated now
I'm not asking why
I know how

I walk by
Too frail to run yet
The sun is setting over my head
But the dusks don't scare me now
I'm not asking how
I know why

It's time
For saying goodbye
To the thought I had
That if we never had met
I would have been happier
There is no lie scarier
Than this

Let me turn all this
Into memory
Just a memory
Between you and me
As I searched for myself
Just to find you in me
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« Reply #3222 on: April 07, 2019, 10:32:41 »
This all was written somewhere during the last 2 years

***
Words
They come back
Un-romanticize
Swerve
I know where the light went
When you blew out the candle

A billion light years asunder
Still, I’m searching for someone
Asunder with everyone
I’m still searching within myself
For someone else

Words
Ideas in other people’s books
Are repeating themselves
A self-mockery of events
In a sense
Lives are selfies in the past tense

Look
Times come when I’m scared of death
Times come when death is welcome
If I add a sign and sum everything up
It will be a zero
I’m not a hero
I just have no reason to look back

Out of whack
Or predictable
Still, I’m searching for someone
I’m still searching within myself
For someone else

***
Words
Not many of them now -- for you
Not much crying music
Or wrenching pain

Stills
Of life within me
Rotate
Emotions reverberate
But nothing is loud

What streamed inside out
Is given to those who love
Who really love me

Notes
Are piercing me as always
Moments of beauty
Break my heart

Words
Not many of them now -- for you
Not much crying music
Or wrenching pain

Once I was slain by you
Was weak and broken
Loved and longed to you
To be thrown away
By you

Notes
Are piercing me as always
Moments of beauty
Break my heart

Stills
Of life within me
Rotate
Emotions reverberate
But nothing is loud

Turned out
I too can be loved

***
Alone
It doesn’t matter how much loved
My hate within
Will toil
The acid soil
Will give new life
To pain

Subduing me

Forlorn
Of course, all goes under control
My face is strong
Another song
Is beating me
Within
My broken mind
My lonely soul

Rebuilding me

The show goes on

***
I still think of you
Though I know I shouldn’t

Within me
Memory is sighing deeply
Desperately
Searching for a way out

Our final round
Didn’t look like one
Yet I knew it was coming

Everything that is happening
Is a new life for me
My second chance
My recompense
For all the storms we’ve been through

I think of you
In stillness of my crowded days
I glimpse within me our romance
The rays
Of always setting sun
So longingly caress our time
Set still in ember of the past

When we become mere specks of dust
This sun will blast devouring us
The way we were and could have been

Within
We knew it all along
A life can never be a song

***
I thought you were
Someone I knew
Someone who could be…

I thought you were
Someone who would
Understand me

I thought you were
Someone who did
What they were speaking of…

See how the snow
Falls onto you
And feel its coldness

That was my quest
Searching for those
Who could be my friends

That was my search
Wanted someone
Who could be a friend

All that we are
All that we were --
Nothing but mere snow

See how it falls
Onto your face,
Melt it with your breath

***
You maimed me
You maimed me brutally

I cannot forget you
I cannot forgive you

You maimed me
Maimed me, broke me
When I came looking for
Kindness and honesty

Don’t tell me
You call it
Love

***
I’m getting into
This cold water

My hand leaves a trace
On the handle

But I step forward
The world is not frozen
Yet

I’m getting into
This cold water

I am its daughter
I shouldn’t fear

The water is clear
Not like you are
When you speak
To me

Or not to me

I’m getting into
This cold water

I am its daughter
I shouldn’t fear
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« Reply #3223 on: April 07, 2019, 20:53:54 »
***
So this is how it happens
The force I can’t fight
As it is life itself
Made me do what every woman is expected to
But I didn’t recognize it first
No, I didn’t recognize it
What my soul did

So this is how it happens
I fought for a long time
Ran a thousand and one mile
Just to acknowledge your power
That I can’t deny

So this is how it happens
And somehow it feels divine
I am peaceful and calm
And I don’t feel alone
And I have no more questions

Is this what you wanted
All along?
I submitted to a man
But somehow I feel so strong
I stare at my own words
In sheer disbelief
I couldn’t recognize
I didn’t see it
What my soul did

Unbreakable as it was unbroken but now it is spoken
A promise that cannot be taken back nor unwoven
Unbreakable as it was unbroken and now it is spoken
A promise that cannot be taken back nor can be broken
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« Reply #3224 on: April 09, 2019, 21:34:08 »
***
Easy
It could have been so
Easy

One word
It could have taken
Just one word

And now the beyond is staring me
Into the face
The darkness knows the way it goes
In each its phase
I took the blame but now I see
I was too fast

Oh, look at me
And look at you
And look at us

You are no saint

Punish
I thought I could let you
Punish

Vanish
I thought I would simply
Vanish

Oh, we’ve been here before

Don’t you see?
You don’t allow me to be angry
Don’t you see?
You’d rather break me
Don’t you see?
So similar it is to me
So close to my family
My love is my enemy
Oh, how I didn’t see?

It is me
But you don’t want me as I am
Rather would turn me into your vision
Was your love for me an illusion
And this is the price?

Loved you -- and love you
The way you are
Love me -- oh, please just love me
The way I am

Or is this love?

Easy
It could have been so
Easy

One word
It could have taken
Just one word

The world
Is covered in snow
My vibrant world

I know
I see you and I know
You want me gone

***
I am
Deep
Slow water

My home
Is total stillness
That always moves

My heart
Is hidden deep
Inside the lightless void

Devoid
Of any hate or guilt

I am
Deep
Slow water

Some play with me
Some drown in me
Some are drawn to me
I breathe in and breathe out, sadly
I am ruled by the moon
Yet the moon doesn’t see it

Moved by, yet staying in one place
My waters are cold as the moonlight’s trace
I face the path reaching up where I can’t go
Let go of me, you say, and pull me in
Return to me, you say, and sway away
I am the deep slow water
I look calm and simply get colder

There is no wonder
There is no fear

I am
Deep
Calm water

My heart
Is hidden deep
Inside the lightless void

Destroyed
And struggling to get healed

I am
Deep
Cold water

Some play with me
Some drown in me
Some are drawn to me
I breathe in and breathe out, sadly
I am ruled by the moon
But my moon doesn’t see me
When things go bad -- do something good.