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Off-Topic / Antw:Now and next Playing/What are you listen
« Last post by egonSchiele on July 13, 2019, 12:49:09 »
now: Radiohead -- Codex
next: Radiohead -- I Might Be Wrong

I'm quite a fan :)
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Off-Topic / Antw:CONFESSION ROOM...
« Last post by egonSchiele on July 13, 2019, 12:45:47 »
I confess I'm tired of these storms. I'm tired of misunderstandings, too. Whatever I do seems to end in a storm, so I will do nothing.
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Off-Topic / Antw:Now and next Playing/What are you listen
« Last post by egonSchiele on July 12, 2019, 19:58:03 »
now: Radiohead -- I promise
next: Radiohead -- Sail to the Moon
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Off-Topic / Antw:Thought in one line
« Last post by egonSchiele on July 12, 2019, 19:55:17 »
I need you more than I thought, but even more than that I need to know you're well. I'm an idiot.
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Off-Topic / Antw:How About Poetry???
« Last post by egonSchiele on July 12, 2019, 19:10:28 »
***
In my heart, I record every wave
Of the bridges, I wanted to kiss you on
In my mind I know — in a year I’ll be gone
From these bridges
And these people
And maybe even this continent

I am confident
Of this as of my own skin

I come in
My temporary home
It will be known
By my friends
As a safe haven

It would be heaven
For me to see
Faces looking at me
Smilingly

Maybe
This is why I am here

In my heart
I saved your smile
Your quick glance at me
And my misery
Of failing us both

Sometimes I dare looking there
But mostly I try drowning in the river
Of beauty
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Off-Topic / Antw:CONFESSION ROOM...
« Last post by Kitty on July 12, 2019, 09:31:32 »
I confess I still find it hard to deal with irritation... I tend to scold people, yell, scream and leave all my reason behind when someone is not behaving the wa y I thought they would (by now). I realise it's been something I struggle with ever since I was little and I only discovered it because my own little fellow behaves that way as well and as it is triggered again with me because someone else I've been with 24/24 7/7 these past two weeks. I guess I know what it means, but I'm not ready to see that yet... I just want to know how to deal with the unbelievable anger-burst-outs that come up and tend to be a lot heavier now than when I was younger... I guess because I neglected my self for too long in this.
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Off-Topic / Antw:Thought in one line
« Last post by Kitty on July 12, 2019, 09:27:09 »
my head is full of swear, full of hate and full of bullshit
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Off-Topic / Antw:How About Poetry???
« Last post by Kitty on July 12, 2019, 09:26:15 »
what happened that I attracked yet another obstacle
turned on a road I thought things were about to get smooth
love and peace came in center
and now this
when am I supposed to just enjoy the love for my own child?
when am I allowed to say fuck you to all the bitchy crap things?
when am I allowed to chose for myself where I put my attention on to?
why is it so fricking hard for others to just leave me alone?
it is the road I chose I walk onto now
there's no escaping when you're put together 24/24 7/7
my soul needs peace, rest, time out
and none sees it, none respects it, non accepts it
what happened that I drew all this over my head
wasn't I happy once?
wasn't I  at peace once?
or will it take till I step out of this?
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Off-Topic / Antw:How About Poetry???
« Last post by Kitty on July 12, 2019, 09:21:27 »
For real it is that I can utter in words what I can't speak out loud
if I had known the shit I entered I would have turned around
remained alone for the rest of my life
because I feel incapable of breathing
this stincky filthy drap crap chokes me
and all I want is to step out
the remaining days with, I sense as too much, too long
begone and fade, I won't miss you for a second
the guilt feeling for my own feelings are there
but I entered the state of mind that my self matters too
and so young and unstable but unbelievable believes to empower my self
I hate him for doing this, I hate him for being
for real it is that I would not speak out loud these words
for you're supposed to be kind and sweet and understanding
you're supposed to let a child be child and swallow
the crap and soulunworthy attitude they spread
a mirror perhaps can't speak louder than this one
an illness should never be a masquerade for uneducated
unhelped and left by themselves kids because parents don't wanna see
they're not fitting in by themselves...just like I once...still
god knows I hate myself for hating
but in words I can utter what in sounds ought not come out
it's my soul unworthy to be this desperate in hatred
but I cannot stand the way it moves and crawls and gathers strenght inside
it kills me, eats me, distracts me, this pissed off wrecked irritation
in thoughts I smacked his head a thousand times towards the wall back there
fear of myself
just a little while and it's all gone again.
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Off-Topic / Antw:CONFESSION ROOM...
« Last post by egonSchiele on July 11, 2019, 22:32:02 »
I confess I understand people who want to have nothing to do with me.
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